Talking to you today made me realise once again how weak I am, even though I thought I am strong and can handle everything….. Well I didn’t cry like I did last time but pondered over Why you came into my life when I needed you least, and you walked out of my life when I need you the most..
Funny to say that it wasn't you who walked out, it was me….. who let you do so that I wouldn't get hurt, because I was scared to fail in love again…………..
I used to think that we all all are destined to our pathways in life, what brings happiness and sadness to our lives. After meeting you, I thanked my destiny………..Things happens for a reason..I cannot figure out the reason yet.
I never really understood the meaning of letting go the loved one, and if it's meant to be it will come back………… I tried first time and that’s why never want to let you go. But just like everybody else you went away just to turn my world upside down..
First time I laid my eyes on you would never imagined that my heart would fall for you……...Every moment we spent together I remember like yesterday..All those evening chatting over coffee, all those nights having dinner together. All those tiny moments of showing love for each other, kissing on the middle of the road, laughing till it start to hurt and crying by knowing that it wont last..just staying in silence and just knowing by the look in both of our eyes that it is the best moment of our lives..
The first night you were with me, would never imagined I would fall for you…….. your whispering into my ear still echos..your tender touch still can be felt on my skin, your soft lips still felt on my lips……… Your heartbeat in next to mine still echoes….. your breath on my neck still resonates, I still want to behold you tight next to me the way I did the night you were sleepless next to me………
You kept telling me how much you like me, love me - but I was scared to make you part of my life. I was scared, I was stupid, I never took your words seriously, untill the day you expressed how much you Love me.. Today the way you said that, the way your voice reached my ears, the way your eyes glimpsed, the way you expressed it with your secret most move , I realised that you mean what you said……. That you are different not like others as they left me.
And since then we became “Us” from you and me untill today when you said “Let’s call it off” though we started just now. What hurts the most is that we both know what we want and how much we want it, we cannot have it. If I could, I would give all of me, I would risk everything just to stay next to you, just to hold you, and feel you even though that would mean I would never be able to do that again..........
Do you still want to give up? Or just live with the pain and questioning yourself what if?
